I wanted to show.. that there are real, pure, genuine people out there. Someone you could trust anything with.. and not regret telling it. But i failed.. over and over again. I guess that's what makes me human.
It's funny how these things often repeat itself with me... sort of like an unending cycle. I'm at the point where.. i'm just about done opening up and letting others in [i know i didn't do a lot of that anyways..]. Not gonna lie though, you were different from all the others. No one was quite like you.. You're sort of irreplaceable. [Maybe that's why i've given up.] But regardless, i apologize for my shortcomings and for not living up to my words. I say a lot of things.. i know.. i'm a broken record. [they all really did come from good intentions though] Maybe one day i'll actually live up to what i say.
But from day one, i enjoyed every moment of it. I don't regret coming home early. I sincerely wish you only the best.
On a side note though.. December 15th is where it all begins. It'll sort of be my.. next chapter i guess? I don't really know what to call it.. but I'm looking at everything with a new perspective, a new purpose. Things will be different this time around. November 28th was supposed to be my "Day One." Obviously.. that was a fail since i'm aiming for next thursday. However, this time it's for real. As the new year approaches, i'm only looking at things to start changing for the better.. and the change starts with me. As bad as things may seem now.. it's still amazing how beautiful everything is. It's amazing how much that's left after so much had been taken away. Things are going to start looking up. YOLO right..? Haha jokes i don't really buy into all that stuff but really though.. I don't want to be staying in the same place anymore. Life isn't a re-run.
It's time to step my game uppp.
